Here I am, midway through 2015, and already a whirlwind of events have taken place. You see, I turned 29 (for the 9th time) at the beginning of the year. Please tell me you can do the math. I say this lightly, but I hate aging!! However, it sparked something inside of me to “dream big” or I should say to go after my big dreams. “What do I have to show for myself?’ I thought.
My whole life, I’ve had all these aspirations to be a singer, songwriter, wife, author, public speaker, performer, comedian, life coach, designer, make-up artist, entrepreneur, teacher and nowhere at the top of my list, a mom as well. So, I got a degree in Music; became a voice and piano teacher, taught myself and others how to write songs; performed in a few musicals and small town events, got married and became a mom of two beautiful and energetic children. Oh, I’ve done a few home- based businesses as well. Still, at the beginning of this year, I asked myself, “What do I have to show for myself?” Since it seemed like the only thing I was accomplishing was keeping my kids alive.
For far too long I let my circumstances control me. I have had way too many nervous breakdowns, battled bulimia, struggled post partum depression; been on depressants, anti-depressants; a victim of child molestation which led to an overwhelming amount of insecurities; diagnosed ADD, ADHD, PCOS , PTSD and not to mention, I’m allergic to ginger. That’s right. My throat will close shut. It’s not good. Sigh….. Believe me, I know what it’s like to have a bad day.
So why has this year been a whirlwind of events? I decided to face my fears. All of them!! Including child molestation, which is very difficult for anyone to talk about. You see, through these circumstances, I’ve figured out how to help others. It has also been my Faith in God who has healed me. It is on a daily basis that I claim Philippians 4:13. I have chosen to work harder on myself than to wish life were easier. I have chosen to be thankful instead of complain. I have chosen to face my fears.
So now, something new begins; ideas are formed; communities are restored; and we talk about the difficult things. A new show is being produced called, “Life in Purple” or “LIPtalk.” I just happen to be your host. My life is far from perfect and it’s far from normal, well, maybe it used to be. It depends on your definition of normal. My definition of normal is “suppress your feelings.” I no longer do that. Ask my husband. It’s time to start a “Confidence Movement”; to teach others about the power of self -talk; and to conquer your fears. Our children watch us more than we think. I am challenging you to believe, “What you say, is what you become.’