Running From Yourself

How many of you are running on steam? Or, should I say, running out of steam?  Tis the happy season to go shopping and sing, fa la la la la la la la la. Sigh…. Either way you look at it, this is my favorite time of year.  My kids are starting to understand the joy in giving, so, we are having extra fun right now. I do believe we will be baking, AGAIN, this weekend.  Sugar cookies are the favorite around here, what about you?  I wanted to take a few moments and reflect on our most recent episode with Tara Neal.  Tara is a friend of mine, who happens to have conquered A LOT!!



There just might be something that everyone with low self esteem can relate too…. We try to run away from ourselves.  A few years ago, I realized that I was doing just that… Trying to survive, I ended up self sabotaging.  Can you relate?  I was in denial about being bulimic and found myself constantly wanting to run away from every difficult circumstance.  Since I was barely surviving, of course I wanted to take the easy route…. The same is true for my sweet friend, Tara.

Tara passionately told me that she had a great childhood; but, it was in her teen years that she discovered the power money can have over a person.  As I listened to Tara tell her story and all the struggles she faced, I couldn’t help but hear strength in her voice.  Yes, she admits to being addicted to money and drugs, but something in her was fighting to come out.  I believe it was the Holy Spirit.

Although, Tara shared intimate details of her life, such as stripping and being in an abusive relationship, there was a point when she said enough was enough.  The struggle to overcome any kind of addiction can be torture physically and mentally.  Physically, she said that she had migraines for days and mentally she battled her self worth.


There were many things Tara did to try and run away from herself… It started with getting a fake I.D…..  Which, as I reflect, many people do.  But, for Tara that opened up a whole new world.  It was a world full of lies, deceit and pain.  I really hope you get a chance to hear her story.  She’s overcome a lot in such a short amount of time.  I truly believe that Tara was trying to run away from herself.

As she concluded her story, there was such resilience in her voice.  She found the love of her life and has a beautiful family.  When you are brave enough to face yourself, life will suddenly become happier.  I didn’t say easier… but definitely happier.  When you stop trying to control everything and surrender to the call on your life, God will open doors that you could only have dreamed of.

I remember so clearly the day I faced myself and my soul has been at peace ever since.  That’s what I wish for everyone.  Stop running from yourself.  You may think it’s the right thing to do, until you live in fear.  The opposite of fear is love.  To know love is to connect with others and yourself.  God has made each of us to be unique.  I pray that today will be the day you can be free from your past.

To find out more from Tara or reach out to her send her a message to

Tara’s story is beauty in brokenness and lives and wonderful Life In Purple.

Thank you for reading this blog on Life In Purple.  Where the broken can heal and the successful can conquer.  If you’re thinking that this blog was just for you, or you have a story to share that connects with other blogs or episodes,  I would LOVE to hear from you.  Send me a quick email to or check out our website at Let’s all rise together and create a community that stops the negative talk.  We ARE wonderfully made.  What you say is what you become.

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Laura Spragg is a speaker and the host of the growing podcast and blog: Life in Purple – A place that fosters the journey of new perspectives, renewed energy, and a passion to be the best version of ourselves. Visit our Website or Facebook page to learn more… who doesn’t want a little extra positive in their life?

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